I stil miss him alot...
Although he had hurt me b4... although i had uncountable cryin nites..although all promises r history...
i stil miss him dearly... i duno y..i stil miss d old him i fell in love with.. d him tt was soooo gd to me tt i eva felt tt i was the most fortunate woman in the world... miss d happy times we spent on d beach.. no matter where is it, so long as is with him, it's a happy outing.. bt nw, all tt is left is d solid, clear memories tt linger in my mind wheneva i pass by places we went b4, songs tt we shared,or tings tt reminds me of him... i noe i cant do anythin nw.. all i can do is learn 2 b numb 2 all feelings...
he contact me fr time to time..jus talk/sms lik frenz.. which makes me even more sad.. coz we r lik "zhui shou xi de mo sheng ren".. so near yet so far.. after cryin a nite, i decided to fully stop tis n try let it go.. i told him nt 2 contact me anymore... it took much courage 2 tell him tis, coz i noe, after i say tis, i'll hav 2 lead a life totally without him.. i noe it sounds stupid 4 stil havin feelings for him.. bt he has bcom part of my life.. jus lik a family mem.. for d past 6yrs, i hav him, even @ times w/o him, i stil somehow hav him.. bt nw, it'll b totally none... i hope i can slowly put tis down...
May the 4 of us have futures with happiness and joy!!! |
